The fifth month my wife is gone

First of all, today is the fifth month since my loving wife died of a heart attack at four o'clock in the morning. Now, life is a drag without my wife, and I just go through the motion of living like a zombie, or like one of the living dead. But life must go on, I must do what I can to at least support myself, seeing as I don't have a family anymore.

I'm writing articles now, I have lots to contribute to others. With my life experiences, I feel I can give others lots of advice on how to have a good life. All of these articles are based on my own life experiences and how I dealt with negative influences. Although the idea is to sell those articles, it doesn't matter if anyone actually buys them. I know people read them, and if someone just reads it and receives something, maybe a piece of advice that would benefit them, and if at least one person would use this, then I feel I have done my job.

The banners in this blog is also still active if you would like to have a look through this, I stopped it because I lost my internet connection, and it just wasn't happening fast enough, seeing as this was the only way for me to support myself, and it costs money to run a website and even a free blog.

With all this negative words, here is one of my articles I have written. Maybe someone will benefit from them and not make the same mistakes I have made in life.

My Article

A lot has happened.

A lot has happened since I last published a post. 2014 was a very difficult year for me, and it was very traumatic also. Thinking back to the beginning of the year, I got sick and tired of that corporate nonsense and their insecurities. So, I resigned with the view and intention of making a living for my wife and I off the grid. But off the grid, I mean by not working in the corporate slavery system. And then, I lost my internet connection, I couldn't pay for it. I had a website, and I was using it to make some money. But it did not work out, probably because I did not understand the concept of selling stuff on the internet. I still don't understand the concept, although I at least know now that I was doing it all wrong. I still have a long way to get ahead, I don't have the money to pay the people who know all about this and how to make a success of a website. And they are expensive, I'm sure these people think I already have lots of money. In the mean time, I spent the last of my money to pay for a website. The wheels fell off of course, I was heading for disaster all along. I didn't know what I was doing, nor did I understand how this works.

I lost my internet connection, so I couldn't work on my blog, nor on my website anymore. I went back to the corporate slavery system with the hopes of getting some work. What really beats me is that that system isn't ashamed of themselves. They know the tough times normal people are living under, that even basic food is expensive up to a point where it's unbearable to live, and they pay you a meager, disgusting salary. By paying me so little, they actually insult me. But they don't care as long as the bosses can drive their luxury cars and live in their palaces, Anyway, what I need to say is: my wife died at the beginning of August of that year, and my whole life is destroyed now. I just go with the motions of living, I feel like one of the walking dead since then. Nothing has meaning anymore.

In September, I was sitting in my room one night, and I wanted to commit suicide. I know that this is not the way to go, so I sat there and prayed: "God, I have nothing left. I commit what is over to you. I submit to Your will." Now, I have a small room at the back of the church which is perfect for me, I don't have a family to care for anymore. I have internet connection, and I can use it as I want, but I need to use it sparingly. I don't know what's going to happen after this.I am writing articles now, I will place a link to them after this. I'm doing this because I enjoy it. I don't care whether people buy these articles, as long as someone can benefit from it. Because I write articles on my own experiences in life and how I managed to overcome the problems, although it's an ongoing process. I should be posting more regularly from now.

One of my Articles

The Currency Converter

Allow me to explain how the currency converter works, in case you don't know how to use it. I placed it here for your convenience for you to be able to calculate the price of each item you choose according to your own country's exchange rate. I know I prefer using to be able to know exactly howmuch it will cost in case I don't have enough money in my account. I like to make double sure because of the complications with the bank. There are two sides of the currency converter. On the left, it says I have. On the right, it says I receive. There's a drop down arrow on the left of each window. The widow on the left, change it to US Dollar because what you want to buy is calculated in US Dollars. On the left window, change ito to whatever your country's currency is. Under the orange window which now says US Dollar, In the grey window below the orange window, Put there the actual price of the item you wish to buy. Next to that window, also a grey window, you will see the price of the items in your country's currency. And that's all, now you can see exactly what the price is in your own currency. I like to keep things easy and simple, without any unnecessary stuff.

To be honest, I don't know what to blog about today, but I feel I need to blog daily, with any topic. The weather is nice and cool today, although very humid. I'm the maid in my home, and I wanted to do some major cleaning, which I had to postpone for a sunny day. I want to wash the bedding, and the dogs need a bath, they stink. Tomorrow, maybe.

Now I know

At least I know now why my website has been blocked. It's because the email program I boughthas expired, I have to pay for it again. I have to wait for another month at least before I can pay for it. But until then, my webstore is on my third blog, right at the bottom. I have to use the resources available to me, and in spite of all these troubles, be successful. I hope, anyway.To see my webstore, go to: webstore The blog is called compusar.co, and the webstore is at the bottom. It's a widget, to access the actual webstore, click on any item there, then you will have access to it. I have only three categories in it: apparel, shoes and books. I don't want to make it too big, this is only a webstore, not a supermarket. In this blog, is a banner advertising clothing discount, 40 % off clothing. Click on the banner, and you will taken to my associate account. But just ignore that, click on any item you would like to see. Then, you will be taken to the shopping cart. Bare in mind that shipping costs are free if you buy for over $35,00. Also, your personal details, including your banking details, is safe with us. If you would like, please let me know when you buy anything on my associate's account. It's not my business what you buy, nor howmuch you pay, I just would like to follow up with people to make sure the new items arrive at the right address. Depending on where in this world you live, it will take about two to three weeks for delivery. And feel free to use the currency converter to calculate the exchange rate according to your own country. Well, we'll chat again tomorrow. Cya

I couldn't do it . . .

I wanted to put my webstore here in this blog, but I just couldn't find a way to do that. It's too big, and the configuration for this doesn't allow to use HTML code here. So, I had to change my plans. Now, I find discounts, promotions and bargains to place on the gadgets. If you want to see what I have done, please follow this link: compusar.co

Compusar.co is actually my domain name of my website, but unfortunately, it's out of action until I have the finances to pay for it. It is active, but I'm not sure what is actually wrong with it. I expect to be paid by my provident fund in a month or so, then I will have the money to pay for it, and more. There's a lot I want to do, but it costs money. And that is one thing I don't have right now, seeing as I'm unemployed and I just have to make this work. I mean my new vocation as an affiliate agent for amazon.com. I know this is a legitimate business, but it will take time to be able to actually make a living out of this. This isn't for quick, easy money, it will take time. Until then, I just have to bite the bullet and push forward. Somehow, but I'm confident of what I am busy with.

You have noticed I changed the color scheme in thos blog, making it the same as my morning blog. I prefer darker colors because it's easy on your eyes. My eyes are very light sensitive, and it gets painful looking too long at bright light. Any bright light, and I'm sure many other peole feel the same way. It's a lot better now with the new LCD monitors, but the old CRT monitors were painful looking at. For everyone who actually read my blogs, thank you, I feel honored for you to actually take the time to read this.

Still Waiting

I'm still waiting for my situation to change. It's funny how things can change so suddenly. You think life is changing and improving, then the wheels fall off. You think you are taking a step forward, but in actual fact, you're taking ten steps back. I have a this voice in my heart that keeps on saying: "Be patient, don't worry." I feel it's God Himself telling me that. I know that worrying is a waste of time. It steals your time, your happiness, and it doesn't help at all. It makes you sick, even dries your bones, and plays horrible games with your imagination. And in the end, it seems so much worse than it actually is. My problems is patience. I know that patience is a virtue, but that is one virtue I don't have. So, all I can do is bite the bullet, keep my mouth shut, and wait. In other words, be patient.

I believe that Saturday things will improve dramatically. That is, unless things go wrong again as it usually does. I want to start a new blog, but dedicated to my webstore and my business as an amazon.com affiliate. The reason for that is because I need sales. I know that people think twice before they buy things, money is scarce, so I will also add banners advertising discounts, bargains, specials and anything that would be cheaper than the norm. I know this isn't actually the right way to do it, people don't take you seriously if you have a free blog or free website, but I have to use the resources I have at this time. My website has been blocked because I need to pay for it again, which I will have to wait till I have the finances for that. I ought to be able to do this in a month or so when I have my payments from my provident fund. Until then, I have no other finances coming in, I am presently unemployed. So, I have to make this work no matter what. I can't go back to the corporate system, they can't offer me the stability and security I need to live, even survive.

To all the people who are following me, thank you very much. Over time, I will like to get to know you personally, but we'll see as I get on. I will place my new blog address here on Saturday, unless things go wrong again. Thank you for your time.

Been a while

It's been a while since I posted on my blog. Actually, I have two. One I post in the morning, and one in the afternoon. This one I normally post in the afternoon. But because of unexpected circumstances, I had to cut down to once a day to save my internet connection. Unfortunately, I chose to post on my morning blog. It was a tough decision, but I felt it was better to post on my morning blog. I haven't given up, I won't give up, this is just a problem I intend to deal with as soon as possible. It will take me another two months about because I'm waiting for extra money to come in due to me by the provident fund. Then, it will be full steam ahead. I have chosen working as an affiliate associate for amazon.com as a vocation. But I need to learn a lot about marketing and social media. Most people go to university to study that, but I have to learn it by trial and error. Sometimes I don't which way to turn there's so much information out there on the subject.

In the meantime, don't try get in my website, it's out of action till I can pay for my domain again, but I will let you know when it's back online again. I have banners on my blog for you to inspect, and there is also the currency converter for your convenience. I have plans and ideas I want to experiment with, I'll see as I get along, as soon as I am able. It's nice to know people aree actually reading my blogs. Thank you for your time.